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The Delimiter
Friday, 17 July 2009
"...didn't know what to do..."

Bill is on the list at the Hamilton.(Photo) 

Bill was, not much better off, last year.  He had his teeth.  It is 17 July 2009.  Last year he was in Portland.  He had his truck and a suspended license.  He was sleeping in Paul's attic.  The new Doctor, Jessica Cuzzens started him on Prozac.  It helped him lose his inhibitions and Bill entered the strip club circuit.  And more.  Paul and Bill disagreed and split.  Bill found a room downtown.  He stayed 5 months.  His Mother got very ill, requiring round-the-clock care.  His Brother, Mike arrainged help and paid for it.  Bill gave up his room and visited his Mom.  He stayed 2 months.  He was judged there as disobedient to the Faith he aquired from his Mother.  And made to feel guilty.

Bill thought of going to Alaska and Albuquerque.  He also considered staying in Victorville, where and until he could get his tooth fixed at the best cost.  He reurned to Portland.  He could have rented, another room, but didn't know what to do.  He slept outdoors April, May, June.  He left his sleeping bag somewhere and it was taken.  He left his jacket on the MAX and it was taken.  Today he is at Pilot Project for a 10:30 appointment with Sia.  They put him up in a motel room a week.  Their complaints are Bill makes too much on SSD and he has debt.

Bill has no buds, a girl or a job.  His strip club visits are curtailed for lack of funds.  Some of the strippers Bill knows are very friendly with him.  Bill stopped going to Kingdom Halls and churches.  He is on Prozac and Lamictal.  At the Kingdom Hall he is pressured to be a JW.  At church he is pressured to believe in Heaven and Hell.  The pressure to be a JW is unmitigating.  Bill needs a friend or a group to express himself.

Bill is learning he may have Gender Dysphoria.


Posted by btlsp at 2:21 PM EDT
Updated: Friday, 17 July 2009 7:28 PM EDT

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